Hold up–can we just appreciate the alliteration in my very first blog post.  Yeah, that’s the writing teacher in me…I just can’t help it. 🙂

I figured that my very first post would be about why I’ve taken the plunge and decided to start this thing.  As much as entering my late twenties has induced anxiety and a million and one questions about where my life is headed, it has also brought me clarity, confidence and courage. Clarity about the experiences I’ve had thus far, confidence to know who I am and what I bring to the table, and the courage to take chances. One thing I’ve learned is that life is in constant motion, and if you don’t make the time to do the things that fuel your fire, it can leave you feeling incomplete.

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After graduating college, I’ve spent that last 5 years doing something that I truly love–teaching.  My students and my career fill up my cup in so many ways.  I feel blessed to have found a passion that motivates me daily and that brings me unimaginable joy.  Don’t get me wrong–the hours are tremendously long and absolutely exhausting (hello, charter life!), but the genuine relationships I get to build and growth I see in my students daily and over time, make my heart and soul fill with purpose. There’s no doubt that when I am with my students, it’s where I’m supposed to be.

And while my job is extremely fulfilling, I couldn’t help but recognize that since graduating, there’s always been a creative void missing in my life. So much of post grad life is consumed by finding the right job, working to make a name for yourself, chasing the money or promotion and simply just trying to stay afloat in life.  While we’re so busy checking off the boxes of what society says we need to have accomplished, we fail to recognize and fuel our inner fires….which leaves us feeling empty. If you know me personally, you know that I have a hard time “sitting still.” I’ve been on the constant go, go, go, leaving little time to do the things that feed my soul.  Living the New York lifestyle hasn’t helped me slow down either. I’ve realized that I need to have a creative outlet that has nothing to do with my job.

So here I am, attempting to reconcile my passion for writing and finding beauty and joy in my daily life in the form of this blog.  For far too long, I’ve pushed aside my desire to start this because of fear. As I sat down to reflect on the root of my fears, I realized that most of them had to do with how others perceived me.  What if people judge me? What if my pictures aren’t good enough? What if no one reads this?

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And then one day, I stopped that little voice in my head from growing and began filling myself up with positive affirmations.  I am worthy. My story is important. I can do this. I spend so much of my time empowering my students to use their voice in order to tell their stories.  Yet, here I was failing to take my own advice. So instead of letting fear dictate the choices I make in an effort to make those around me comfortable, I’m here doing the very thing that scares me the most…and it feels damn good.

Because at the end of the day, this isn’t about other people.  This is about doing something that brings me joy.  This is about fueling my fire that I’ve neglected for far too long. This is about facing my fears and lighting that first match no matter how scary it is.  I hope you’ll join me on this journey.

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What I’m wearing:

As you’ll soon see, I’m a bargain hunter to the max (teacher budget, duh), so I’ll ALWAYS let you know where to find the deals that’ll make you look fabulous and won’t break the bank.

  • Gap denim jacket, similar style here
    • On sale: $29.99, plus an additional 10% for Gap cardholders
    • This is actually a men’s jacket!
  • Black-striped, white dress
    • Bought at a store called Cali Blue (no online store-sad!) for $18
  • Jack Rogers knock-off sandals
    • Price: $24.99
  • Loft circle bar necklace, similar style here
    • On sale: $12

Thank you for reading and may the sun shine bright for you today. 🙂

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